I appreciate all of the "Lupus warrior" comradery, I truly believe WE ARE WARRIORS!
I have, however, come to a realization, that not all of us can be, or even have the strength to live up to that "Warrior" mentality! There ARE those of us who just WANT TO FECKING VENT! Although I am aware of the passionately pussified attention seeking few, many of us strive for a more substantial and truly understanding venue. I really sometimes want to choke the living shit out of all those "Stay positive polyannas" take your happy go lucky attitude and shove it! I'm entitled to this anger, I need to be angry today, and maybe even tomorrow, then I'll probably alternate between terror and tears until the denial sets back in. Sure, I'm still happy sometimes too, but my happy times still have that Wolf lurking in the periphery watching and waiting. I'm mostly pissed off by the way lupus is robbing my Children of a whole Mommy, and stealing away the Wife my Husband thought me to be. my glass is half empty today, so I fill it with wine to ease the pain...and yet that Wolf remains.
I have, however, come to a realization, that not all of us can be, or even have the strength to live up to that "Warrior" mentality! There ARE those of us who just WANT TO FECKING VENT! Although I am aware of the passionately pussified attention seeking few, many of us strive for a more substantial and truly understanding venue. I really sometimes want to choke the living shit out of all those "Stay positive polyannas" take your happy go lucky attitude and shove it! I'm entitled to this anger, I need to be angry today, and maybe even tomorrow, then I'll probably alternate between terror and tears until the denial sets back in. Sure, I'm still happy sometimes too, but my happy times still have that Wolf lurking in the periphery watching and waiting. I'm mostly pissed off by the way lupus is robbing my Children of a whole Mommy, and stealing away the Wife my Husband thought me to be. my glass is half empty today, so I fill it with wine to ease the pain...and yet that Wolf remains.