I've been really searching today, for the answers to why I am so sad, why I'm stagnating, not participating not REALLY living my life. Then it hit me... I need to stop looking for answers to ambiguities, and refine my search. I need to operate a bit more like Google. If the input is a generality, so too are the answers.
Historically, when I put specifics into the universe, I get what I want. After a failed marriage, I spent years of misery dating all the WRONG men. I ended up broken, alone, hopeless... as I sat in a shelter for battered women, I began to pray. I wrote down on paper EXACTLY what I wanted and needed in a partner. I realized that unless I KNOW WHAT I WANT, how can GOD get the message that IM READY!?
Within a month, I met my Soulmate.
When we chose to move, we looked and looked for the right house, we were running out of time, I sat down and DECIDED what I really wanted and needed in a home. Then I gave it to God...And then God gave it to me. Discounted !! 😝
On the flip side, I was tired, and needed to rest, God gave me lupus. I had subconsciously sabotaged myself. I wanted a daughter who was unique, fierce, and funny... I forgot to ask for rational, and unselfish, but I got what I asked for, and she is AMAZING! I asked for a fresh start, and that's what I have, but I'm lost in it...
The lesson for me is this, when you want or need something to manifest in your life, ASK THE RIGHT QUESTIONS! Don't use generalities, get SPECIFIC!! Ask YOURSELF what it is you TRULY want and need, then when you're READY... give it to God, put your intent into the cosmos, and have faith, but be prepared to have your intent realized, and be READY to do some work.
Here's to a new plan, I'm ready.
T.