My lover wakes with Disney bluebirds and a far too Chipper gusto for all of the things sunrise may bring ( usually )♡
Perhaps age has mellowed this annoyance, perchance I have ruined it.
I have always been a 2nd half player. I wake UP around 4ish(pm) regardless of the ACTUAL hour.
I'm forced to become cognizant of School... appointments... and other such drivel.
I tend to avoid these.
I've spent most of my life earning a living by being attuned to the night.
6pm till 6am in a truckstop cafe.
4pm till 3am Bartending and then coming home just in time to get up with a fussy baby and sing a series of lullabys.
My babies are no longer babies, and I no longer work those shifts...however
I can't shake it.
I revel in my moonlight.
I breathe in the night like it's a life giving essence.
There's very little chance of a call, a disaster or distraction.
I don't HAVE to DO anything or BE anyone.
I Am.
I breathe it in.
Bathe in the luxuriousness and absolute naughtiness of it.
I Am.
I carry on conversations with myself ( sometimes good, sometimes not) AND
I actually listen.
I stop being lonely for a moment.
Music means more within the 3 am delirium because it's MY music...
My daily issues fade away and for a little while...
I AM.
I AM not important, imperfect, broken or unbroken.
I become simple and dive
Within
I
AM.